There was a time in which I realized I was going to take this life of mine and shake it until it shuddered. When I knew I was going to turn the world inside out and discover something new; when I was no longer afraid. And so I began to think and to plot, and devise. And the options grew endless, and I stood there, blinking happily in their wake, knowing that one of them (at least one of them) would be mine. I just had to reach out, grab it, and make it so.
I decided it was extremely important to hang onto these fleeting future paths with both hands, while simultaneously plunging headfirst into their depths. Let me tell you, that takes some ingenuity. But I haven't lost these dreams this time around, and that is something to be said.
Plunge headfirst I have. I have enrolled myself in an eight week course at a local college here on the island. It's main purpose is to help me rediscover my strengths, my wants and desires, and to help me fix any major areas of weakness that might hinder those thoughts/dreams/desires (which I would love to go into more detail about, but that is a whole other post unto itself). Because it is full time (Monday to Friday from 9am to 3pm) it will be a test to see how well I can handle full time hours on my good and bad days. It will let me see just how well I will do should I choose or attempt to pursue full time schooling or full time work in the near future. It is reality in an unreal setting thrust my way.
In the meantime, I joined a dragonboat team and competed in an international race held here on the island (hello competitive streak, I'm sorry I haven't had you in team sports for so long again, I rather forgot how much I enjoy it). We did fantastic (still no pictures, sorry, but I promise soon. Soon.) I rediscovered how paddling makes me feel brand new, and yet old and complete all at the same time. I worked hard and laughed, until every bit of me ached, making new friends along the way.
I disappeared into nature with a great friend and took my time breathing in the earth. I discovered new places on and off my island, and let the dogs tromp to their hearts delight along trails. We had a brilliant time. And now I am back, with two months to kill before school begins, and an endless list of possibilities hanging in front of me, all within reach.

Recent Comments